trytopayattention

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Sun, 22 Nov 2009 06:26:00 +0000

Today was hard. I sat with the same face that was all messy 15 years ago. I love that girl Sara.

happy times

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 04:00:00 +0000

i just made myself some scrumptious hot chocolate, i put the following in a pot: some milk, a bit of sugar, a splash of vanilla from mexico and, half of a baking square of semi-sweet chocolate. then i slowly warmed it....til the chocolate was melted, good things take time. it's yummy!

life is worth the risk

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 06:33:00 +0000

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 05:12:00 +0000

so this week i was forced to evaluate and comtemplate relationships. an unfortuate situation was the induction for this topic. i'm now on the other side of the dark cloud and can look back at its soft, round grayness and smile. i'm ok, actully more than ok. i allowed myself to spend 3 days on me. the books, the tea, the exercise, the decorating, the sun, the chocolate. the thoughts in my head. all were good.

too much of anything is bad, balance is good. i strive for it, crave it, embrace it, long for it and occaionsionally run away from it. as i thought about relationships i realized that balance is needed. you both need to equally want, need and love each other. i enjoy and cherish all my balanced realationships. the unbalanced ones frustrate me.

i had 3 days of glorious chocolateness, cinnamon buns, tea and general unbalance.

tomorrow morning there will be no pizza for breakfast, i will have protein smoothie ( it will be chocolate however )

food

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Sat, 19 Sep 2009 03:21:00 +0000

36 hours later.....

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Mon, 14 Sep 2009 20:02:00 +0000

This is not a plea for sympathy at all but... I cried myself to sleep the other night and that hasn't happened in years. 36 hours later on the other side of the life i'm just fine and smiling. Enduring a sad evening ( and unfortunatly the following morning as well ) reminded me of the ups & downs and twists & turn of a fulfilling life. I'd rather experience the slippery slope of sadness than a boring flatline of a life.

What intrigues me the most is the common denominiator of my tears of now and then, it was not what I expected or would've even predicted it would be, more to think about.

the best of both worlds

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Sat, 22 Aug 2009 14:28:00 +0000

breakfast in the calgary airport, competition is usually good the for the comsumers

bags

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Fri, 08 May 2009 21:19:00 +0000

here are 3 of my shopping bags. i can finally say that i have the good habit of always bringing a bag along to the store. my love of purses and bags makes this easy for me to do. the eco-friendly side of me feels good. my stash of plastic bags is gone. it's been years since my house has been plastic bag free. yesterday i had to buy garbage bags, i haven't done that in years. huh......

lunch...

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Thu, 07 May 2009 04:02:00 +0000

Michael and Alena at the park

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Thu, 07 May 2009 03:29:00 +0000

baking with auntie

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Mon, 27 Apr 2009 23:51:00 +0000

yum....chocolate cake batter

feet

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Mon, 27 Apr 2009 04:12:00 +0000

i'm always looking at my feet, i check out my new toe nail polish, my need for new toe nail polish, my usually functional shoes and where my feet will land next so that i don't fall. i'm a klutz. i love the fact that my feet take me great places. i have lots of creative friends who put stuff up on flickr, keith puts up a pic a day and keeps on kindly bugging me to put up more pics. my life is a hilarious story with a new chapter everyday. i've decided to take up the creative challange and put a picture a day of my feet. you can check the pics out at www.flickr.com/heidiamelia (the link is on the side of my blog)

what i love about the pic above is my purple polish and the beginning of a sandal tan.

lol

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Wed, 22 Apr 2009 17:35:00 +0000

i've been reading and laughing out loud, it's been good for me. the book i've finished is "Battered Soles". you should read it.

by the way....

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Tue, 24 Mar 2009 02:57:00 +0000

I am basically keeping up with my "New Years" resolutions. I have not dyed my hair, I just walk past the boxes of hair color to test my will power. AND.....I've kept about 75% of the chocolate bar wrappers. ( My brother thinks its only 50% but...he lives in another country. )

subbing

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Tue, 24 Mar 2009 02:53:00 +0000

Today I "taught" gr. 10 Socials Studies. My first thought was that it was inconvienient. It turned out that I enjoyed the carefree feeling of subbing and teaching a class that has no right or wrong answers. Socials Studies may be easy to teach but, Science is easier to mark.

committment

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Tue, 10 Feb 2009 04:56:00 +0000

"The irony of committment is that it is deeply liberating."
This is "appoximately" the quote I read on Starbucks cup. I like it! This thought challenges my lovely spontaneous nature.

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Sat, 10 Jan 2009 06:42:00 +0000

so the reality is that i eat a lot of chocolate that is not in true collectable wrappers. i think the best chocolate may not be in a wrapper.

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 01:11:00 +0000

just so you know...i started taking a "techniques in counselling class" last night. we'll see where it goes. i just might be a school counsellor some day!

for your enjoyment

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Mon, 05 Jan 2009 05:34:00 +0000

so....i'm pretty sure i've put stuff like this up before...and like they say..."hope this sticks".

Here are my two New Year's Resolutions ( or the new politically correct way...My Goals )

1. I am not going to dye my hair in 2009.
2. I am going to keep the wrappers of all the chocolate bars I eat in 2009.

happy new year to you!

gaps

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Tue, 02 Dec 2008 05:53:00 +0000

tonight my yoga instructor told us to spend time in gaps between our thoughts. i need to learn whats going on in the gaps.

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Wed, 19 Nov 2008 06:59:00 +0000

I'm happier than i look in my picture

choices i like to not make

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Mon, 17 Nov 2008 06:12:00 +0000

I'm a snowline on a hillside forest. Both options are good, go up, go down. Sea or Sky, Sky or Sea. My life is filled with options and they're all good. I wanna not make a choice and try to do it all. Somehow I need to make sure I don't get lost.

I took these pics on my drive back to AB from WA. I used to see this scene a lot around Bellingham. I miss it.

been making earrings

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Mon, 17 Nov 2008 05:12:00 +0000

who knows what i'll do next......

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Mon, 17 Nov 2008 05:01:00 +0000

Plum cake, just like my grandma used to make, possibly better than chocolate

Guess which way I went?

mascara

noreply@blogger.com (Heidi) — Wed, 05 Nov 2008 04:04:00 +0000

today i fixed my mascara problem
somehow i bought waterproof mascara
meaning it doesn't come off in the shower
it involves the complicated process of using eye make up remover
another step in a routine that i'm not sure i need
today i fixed my problem
i bought non-waterproof mascara
i'm not that kinda girl

i love days when i don't wear make up
maybe you can only enjoy something if you don't do it all the time