still trying

so.....way back when, the title of this blog came from me sitting in a convention, trying to look interested. in an attempt to not lose my mind i wrote "try to pay attention" ,on what was probably a very important handout, about 100 times.

i was a bridesmaid last weekend for my cousin Heather, it was my grand finale as a bridesmaid, a final performance. during the rehearsal, the commissioner nicely, but firmly said to me "Heidi, try to pay attention". it caught me off guard because i thought i actually had been. in my head i thought, lady , I've been in enough weddings to know the drill. walk slow, walk slower, hold flowers at your waist, look up ( not at the flowers ), fix the wedding dress, smile, sign papers, look up again, still standing,still smiling, still looking at: the back of the bride, front of groom, the commissioner, the crowd and definitely not the flowers. and....finally walking out....after the happy couple.

i didn't need to pay attention, this one i got.