boys are good

had a "boy" in the house this week. boys are good to have around. girls need them. it's a good thing.

Today was hard. I sat with the same face that was all messy 15 years ago. I love that girl Sara.

happy times

i just made myself some scrumptious hot chocolate, i put the following in a pot: some milk, a bit of sugar, a splash of vanilla from mexico and, half of a baking square of semi-sweet chocolate. then i slowly warmed it....til the chocolate was melted, good things take time. it's yummy!

life is worth the risk

so this week i was forced to evaluate and comtemplate relationships. an unfortuate situation was the induction for this topic. i'm now on the other side of the dark cloud and can look back at its soft, round grayness and smile. i'm ok, actully more than ok. i allowed myself to spend 3 days on me. the books, the tea, the exercise, the decorating, the sun, the chocolate. the thoughts in my head. all were good.

too much of anything is bad, balance is good. i strive for it, crave it, embrace it, long for it and occaionsionally run away from it. as i thought about relationships i realized that balance is needed. you both need to equally want, need and love each other. i enjoy and cherish all my balanced realationships. the unbalanced ones frustrate me.

i had 3 days of glorious chocolateness, cinnamon buns, tea and general unbalance.

tomorrow morning there will be no pizza for breakfast, i will have protein smoothie ( it will be chocolate however )