resolutions

so....i'm in complete new years resolution panic. it is now safe to say that i have successfully kept a new years resolution for the first time in my life. i did not dye my hair at all this year. as a result i have lots of thoughts spinning around in my head.

here are some of them:

wow....what power/willpower i didn't know i had, i need to do this again
what should i do
something meaningful, to me
it's easier to not do something, than do something
what should i not do
not drink coffee, too easy
not watch tv, too popular and i can take it or leave it anyways
not watch tv, and write about it
decorate a cake a week, again, its hard to do something
not eat sugar 3 days a week, ugh....the numbers things is hard
back to the tv thing, not watch it, maybe this is the one.
i only have a few days to decide,
of course my resolution could start on Jan 6th, why not,

as usual.....

as ususal.....i have lots of stuff i plan to write here, unfortunately only about 2.2% of it gets here.

but....as usual....my life can be pure comedy, on Saturday night when i was on the ferry coming over to the island, a lady asked me if i was the chief stewards wife, i'm sure i had one my most confused looks ever. as i desparately tried to figure out what part of my current state led her to ask that question, my not so great at multitasking brain, continued to answer her questions. no, i'm not married to anyone who works on the boat, no, i don't work for BC ferries, and finally that question that answered it all....i got this bag from the gift shop. you can go buy something and have one as well. she then continued her query. how much longer will we be on the boat? why are you going to you car? should i be going to my car? blah....blah...blah...and i smiled and walked away.

boys are good

had a "boy" in the house this week. boys are good to have around. girls need them. it's a good thing.

Today was hard. I sat with the same face that was all messy 15 years ago. I love that girl Sara.

happy times

i just made myself some scrumptious hot chocolate, i put the following in a pot: some milk, a bit of sugar, a splash of vanilla from mexico and, half of a baking square of semi-sweet chocolate. then i slowly warmed it....til the chocolate was melted, good things take time. it's yummy!

life is worth the risk

so this week i was forced to evaluate and comtemplate relationships. an unfortuate situation was the induction for this topic. i'm now on the other side of the dark cloud and can look back at its soft, round grayness and smile. i'm ok, actully more than ok. i allowed myself to spend 3 days on me. the books, the tea, the exercise, the decorating, the sun, the chocolate. the thoughts in my head. all were good.

too much of anything is bad, balance is good. i strive for it, crave it, embrace it, long for it and occaionsionally run away from it. as i thought about relationships i realized that balance is needed. you both need to equally want, need and love each other. i enjoy and cherish all my balanced realationships. the unbalanced ones frustrate me.

i had 3 days of glorious chocolateness, cinnamon buns, tea and general unbalance.

tomorrow morning there will be no pizza for breakfast, i will have protein smoothie ( it will be chocolate however )

food

36 hours later.....

This is not a plea for sympathy at all but... I cried myself to sleep the other night and that hasn't happened in years. 36 hours later on the other side of the life i'm just fine and smiling. Enduring a sad evening ( and unfortunatly the following morning as well ) reminded me of the ups & downs and twists & turn of a fulfilling life. I'd rather experience the slippery slope of sadness than a boring flatline of a life.

What intrigues me the most is the common denominiator of my tears of now and then, it was not what I expected or would've even predicted it would be, more to think about.

the best of both worlds

breakfast in the calgary airport, competition is usually good the for the comsumers

bags

here are 3 of my shopping bags. i can finally say that i have the good habit of always bringing a bag along to the store. my love of purses and bags makes this easy for me to do. the eco-friendly side of me feels good. my stash of plastic bags is gone. it's been years since my house has been plastic bag free. yesterday i had to buy garbage bags, i haven't done that in years. huh......

lunch...

Michael and Alena at the park

baking with auntie

yum....chocolate cake batter

feet

i'm always looking at my feet, i check out my new toe nail polish, my need for new toe nail polish, my usually functional shoes and where my feet will land next so that i don't fall. i'm a klutz. i love the fact that my feet take me great places. i have lots of creative friends who put stuff up on flickr, keith puts up a pic a day and keeps on kindly bugging me to put up more pics. my life is a hilarious story with a new chapter everyday. i've decided to take up the creative challange and put a picture a day of my feet. you can check the pics out at www.flickr.com/heidiamelia (the link is on the side of my blog)

what i love about the pic above is my purple polish and the beginning of a sandal tan.

lol

i've been reading and laughing out loud, it's been good for me. the book i've finished is "Battered Soles". you should read it.

by the way....

I am basically keeping up with my "New Years" resolutions. I have not dyed my hair, I just walk past the boxes of hair color to test my will power. AND.....I've kept about 75% of the chocolate bar wrappers. ( My brother thinks its only 50% but...he lives in another country. )

subbing

Today I "taught" gr. 10 Socials Studies. My first thought was that it was inconvienient. It turned out that I enjoyed the carefree feeling of subbing and teaching a class that has no right or wrong answers. Socials Studies may be easy to teach but, Science is easier to mark.

committment

"The irony of committment is that it is deeply liberating."
This is "appoximately" the quote I read on Starbucks cup. I like it! This thought challenges my lovely spontaneous nature.

so the reality is that i eat a lot of chocolate that is not in true collectable wrappers. i think the best chocolate may not be in a wrapper.

just so you know...i started taking a "techniques in counselling class" last night. we'll see where it goes. i just might be a school counsellor some day!

for your enjoyment

so....i'm pretty sure i've put stuff like this up before...and like they say..."hope this sticks".

Here are my two New Year's Resolutions ( or the new politically correct way...My Goals )

1. I am not going to dye my hair in 2009.
2. I am going to keep the wrappers of all the chocolate bars I eat in 2009.

happy new year to you!